Saturday, December 08, 2007
oh and i thought about stuff quite a bit.
like how we are all part of the bigger picture. this HUGE BIG picture.
and everything that happens to us is meant to be.
it was recorded in this big book.
like how some people have to sacrifice and die early to teach others what is the meaning of love, of courage, these lessons.
and we are all but just toy soldiers, you know, like play things, to keep this society going, be it whether you are a road sweeper or the CEO of some big company, or some earth saving humanitarian or some dirty villian,
we are all here to keep society going,
and then we die.
we all do.
its not a bad thing really.
its just a matter of life.
so here's the question:
if you were just born, and you could think rationally, and you thought "OMG, im born to die."
Would you kill yourself right there and then, or live on?
kinda weird issnt it.
haha i dont think im writing well at all today i cant seem to translate what i want to say here.
another thing.
i was thinking about love and i dont believe in true love. those finding the perfect person to spend the rest of my life with, who loves me unconditionally and would do anything for me and living happily ever after kinda love. and i dont believe in love at first sight. its more of physical attraction, infatuation.
because i cannot imagine myself loving someone unconditionally. its seemingly ridiculous.
i believe in finding someone with similar interests, who wants to share my life with me and whom im able to live with comfortably.
thats it. the whole love thing.
because i believe you cant love someone forever. its too hard. too tiring. at least for me.
can you imagine going sappy and starry eyed, every single day?
can you imagine dating every single day?
looking your best? going to interesting places?
sap me of my energy and die =)
everything will fade, beauty, youth, and this so called love fades with it.
but i think people can be best friends forever.
caring for someone. sharing with someone. secrets. everything.
someone whom im not afraid to show the worse side of me to.
someone whom im not afraid to be myself when im around, unrestricted, free.
someone whose willing to watch my back, and whos willing to pick me up when i screw up.
so whats the difference between "true love" and friendship?
to me,
true love is selfish. its wanting something. and owning it.
and it doesnt last.
because once "true love" is achieved, what you want is achieved, and the feeling fades.
friendship can be unconditional. no tie downs. not needing to achieve anything. free.
so to me, this so called "true love", is but just "commitment and friendship", infatuations dont last, but commitment and friendship can last forever.
hui jun published at 12/08/2007 07:57:00 PM
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