Friday, October 26, 2007
my head is spinning terribly right now.
today is such a terrible day.
actually it started from math onwards.
i have a very sensitive nose according to the doctor and the room was smelling like people had been pouring glue on the walls.
i nearly puked. not kidding.
if it was any other teacher other than mr teo i would have walked out.
then there was pw. my emotions just started going downhill from there. it was supposed to start at 6. we waited for like 3 hours. ended up starting at 7. by then i was in quite a panicky and frustrated mood. it wasnt ms chen's fault shes a really dedicated teacher with a million consultations and i really do like her a lot but i was going to visit a sound art performance at 8!! so i left early. at 715.
and then i took 961. bx told me could go marina square. i asked the bus driver if the bus could go to raffles place. HE ACTUALLY SAID YES. so i got on. maybe he didnt hear me clearly. but halfway through the journey i felt kinda unfamiliar with my surroundings so i asked john who happened to be on the bus if the bus goes to raffles place. and he said no. so i got off at bukit merah. like omg. i had 20 minutes to get to the arts house!! so i changed bus to get to dhoby ghaut. and then orchard road had to jam. goodbye performance. then i received a call from chris. 961 does in fact go to arts house afterall. imagine how i felt at that moment. luckily theres still another one tomorrow and i have beloved val to go with me.
by then i was in a really bad mood. i went to dhoby ghaut and i messaged you. wth you took two hours to reply. you dont know how long i spent walking around that place by myself. and i had 8 bucks in my wallet for goodnesss sake. so i was really pissed. i bought a mocha. and it tasted so bad. i felt like screaming.
so i decided to go home. needed to top up my card with 5 bucks. and then i realised the stupid machine didnt accept coins. so i spent like another 5 minutes cursing the machine. walked up the steps to get to the control station. and GUESS WHAT i realised i didnt need to walk up the steps at all the damned walkway was connected. and then GUESS WHAT the control station guy wasnt there!!!! omg. i was having a bad enough day. so i stood there and sulked and waited for him.
by then i was in such a terrible mood. i needed to be alone and there were just too many people around me so i walked to the end of the train. AND THEN GUESS WHAT this group of lower secondary school kids had to stand beside me!!! and GUESS WHAT THEY WERE DOING THEY WERE COMPARING HOW BIG THEIR MIDDLE FINGERS WERE. the guys AND the girls!! i just kept rolling my eyes. so much for needing time alone.
i needed to talk to someone. i called shufang. and then GUESS WHAT my phone disconnected. i got onto the train.
and guess what. i cried.
it wasnt just about my screwed up day. it was about everything.
i havent cried in a long, long while.
i guess i have been an inch away from my breaking point all this while.
its very tiring to keep smiling in school and being positive all the time sometimes.
i really need the next two months.
hui jun published at 10/26/2007 10:37:00 PM
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