Monday, April 24, 2006
ive just reread the following post and its rather egoistic so dont read. :DD
LLCM in Piano Performance
"This diploma demands a FULLY PROFESSIONAL STANDARD of performance and musicianship, consistent with a Level 3 (final-year) UNDERGRADUATE RECITAL. An extremely secure and versatile technique, together with the ability to communicate a tangible sense of interpretative awareness and convincing musicianship, will be expected.
This diploma is open to candidates of any age. It would be UNUSUAL, however, for a candidate below the age of 18 to have the musical maturity required for success at this level."
in other words, little kids below 18 are likely to fail.
haha. so this is it. my final diploma for performance. though theres the fellowship, which is equivalent to a master's degree. but hey. no hurry. im only 16. ill probably go on to teach. and then go take a few teaching diplomas. then if i feel like it ill go for my fellowship.
ha. i just reread whatever that ive typed. and it sounds so ridiculous, so far-fetched, like some little girl's dream.
i never dreamed that ill come this far.
there was once, when i was 7, or 8, i told my mum that i wanted to quit. come on. practicing at least 1 hour a day for a little kid was killer. and my mum sat beside me every single day as i practiced! relentlessly. and she would scold me. every piece, every note, i practiced, till perfection.
really. i was a total perfectionist. i would play a piece, and with one wrong note, just a SINGLE one, i would restart the whole piece, be it whether i was finishing the piece, or not. i could play a piece over and over for an hour. sometimes, i would be almost in tears.
my mum said, "One day, you will thank me for this."
I am SO GLAD she didnt let me quit.
come to think of it, it was crazy. it amazes me, my incredulous level of discipline. ill never be able to do that now or else ill be playing the same piece 24 hours a day.
i was playing sonatas by the time i was 6. i remember there was once i was on the train, and i saw two girls, my mummy's height, and they were holding a book that i was playing too. they were probably in secondary school. being an innocent little kid, i said, "MUMMY! Look! They are playing my book! Why they so big still play my book?"
they turned and stared at me. they must have thought i was some crazy nonsense-spouting baby. my mum just smiled and gave me that typical "when you grow up you will know" answer.
i never forgot that smile.
Then came the time where i was 12. After my grade 8, I was debating whether I should continue taking diplomas. I still hated the piano then. i hated it, for 8 years of my life. I decided to change my piano teacher.
That was the turning point in my life.
my teacher taught me a wide selection of pieces. She taught me the joy of making music. She taught me that notes, are just notes, markings on paper, until you bring them to life. She taught me how to connect with the piano, so much so that the piano, and i, are one.
There's something that she said to me, that ill never forget, "Many people can play the piano. When you play, you can feel the music. You can feel it deep from your heart. Use the power of music to touch souls."
She gave me the chance to take up the violin. I gladly obliged.
And then. She felt that she wasnt good enough. She sent me to another teacher.
my first teacher gave me a good foundation in technique.
my second taught me to love music.
my third taught me to be a performer.
without them, i wouldnt have come this far
i found out that my piano examiner next week is the one who passed me for my ALCM! ha. hes one of the strictest mann. what if i dont make it this time round?
let the music heal your soul.
let the music take control.
let the music give you the power to move any mountains..
hui jun published at 4/24/2006 10:48:00 PM
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