Thursday, February 09, 2006
im so sick of everything. i feel as if i cant handle it anymore. studies, canoeing, art, music.. everything is piling on me. i want a break. a one year break. where i will be able to do other things that i like. ha. thats so not possible.
people.. the society in general expects so much from me. its this unspoken rule.. this silent pressure thats the real killer.
njc? integrated programme? wow you must be a smart ass. and in order to live up to that 'smart ass' title i really have to aim to be it. canoeist? whoa you must be very fit. and so i MUST be very fit. you take art? cool draw something. me: what? ppl: anything. how the hell do you draw anything?! ppl just assume that you can draw absolutely anything.. and it must turn out looking FABULOUS somehow. and music. i hate it when ppl ask me to play ANYTHING. so what if i pass my associate? when ppl hear the word diploma they set this certain standard.. this certain expectation in which im suppose to meet. and its very draining you know.. very draining to balance everything and be GOOD at them. haiz i dont know.. i feel like quitting.
saying byebye to everything.
thats just a dream.
hui jun published at 2/09/2006 10:13:00 PM
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