Saturday, November 19, 2005
i suddenly have the urge to blog about music.
whats so bad about music?
some time ago someone told me that music was a waste of time.
i think ill remember it for life.
and so by saying that, this person just unintentionally told me that i had wasted 14 years of my life, which is basically my whole life.
music has been in my life as far as i can remember.
i started studying music, those fun singing dancing classes since i was 2.
and i started playing piano at the age of 4.
recently, someone kept saying that sports is good, it trains your mind and determination and spirit and blah. sure, i agree. but someone who has never seriously learnt music can never truly understand how its like.
take canoeing for an example.
i can learn it for a couple of months and i can go for competitions.
and the piano. i have to learn it for years, and i hardly even get to perform.
its different.
i never wanted to learnt the piano. i never had a choice. my mother figured that i was talented and made me carry on even when i told her i wanted to quit.
i thank her for that.
that talent. it was a gift. and a curse.
i spent hours on the piano. every single day i had to practice for at least an hour.
and my mother would sit beside me. she would scold me whenever i made a mistake, and sometimes she would scream.
i was only six.
but it didnt matter. not to my mum. not to my teacher.
they made me play sonatinas and sonatas, and i can still remember, they were so difficult, so hard.
sometimes, i would cry.
i would cry in frustration as i could not master the piece.
two pairs of hands with tiny fingers running across the keyboard. i couldnt even reach some of the notes.
and then someone brushes all this off as
a waste of time.
the piano.
when im stressed, i play it.
when im depressed, i play it.
when im sad, i play it.
it makes me forget.
its my life.
when i tell people that i have diplomas in piano performance, they would go 'waa' and give me a look of admiration.
haha.
they will never understand.
it was never a waste of time.
hui jun published at 11/19/2005 09:43:00 PM
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